this is my first time i fast while working...can bear with it la.....working in the icu make the time go faster that sometimes i myself do not realise it was time for me to go home. but when it is time for me to go home i felt soooo tired to go home..i fell like sleeping there...haha....
working is fine...we are starting our night shift soon....but only one night....she want us to get hte feeling of it...mine will be tmr...friday nite.....sat day off and sun afternoon...so it means i will not get to see my hubby...sob sob...
today work sucks ...i could not work.....my mensus just came...and suddenly my body felt sooo lethargic .........i simply cant work with peoplr who are sooooooo KAN JIONG....it will make me feel lost and also kan jiong...and when that happen i just could not follow intsructions and i tend to forget things that was instructed to me....
i miss my nyp craziee frends, miss my secondary mates.....miss my favourite cousins and nieces......
ainul is back from her father's house....becoming naughtier and naughtier.....she will tend to blame others for kicking her which actually shes the one who kicked them....hahah......durr.....
hubby passed his motor bike class 2a......sooo happy.....
hari raya preparation is so so la....clothes already bought......cookies not my prob cos i noe that i will be working during weekends... the only thing i noe that my mum is going to kl a week after hari raya...so i got the car ...yeah......i been driving to work...since....some times 3 days straight....cool huh....buzz me if thosewanna go riding k....or chill outz...
ok thats all for my entry....will update soon...
totally shack ..now...
sue camden
9/27/2007 08:44:00 PM
i din blog for quite awhile....i already started to work on weekends....no time la.
anyway i still do not believe that i work on weekends..haha....like tak percaya gitu.....hehe...but it was ok la...i already start to take 2 case already...i heard from one of my staff nurse that ppl are commenting abt me....i was like huh??.....they say i am confident....really meh?? haha....i receive good feedbacks from a few la...i have to be on my best behaviour cos the sr nurse manager was my mum's colleague back then in toa payoh....mum was en and NM was a SN....just imagine how many donkey years was that..not only her....got a few ppl who have worked with my mum in toa payoh..... so i really have to put on my best behaviour during work...work is work play is play...
anyway ..i was reading my friend's bloggie..she saying abt her saving money for her big day.....jealous jugak sey.....hehe...i do have savings...but i still need to save more.......
love the part when she wrote abt what love is actually.....trully it does need patience and trust...give and take...even though they are bz like hell with their work .they do meet up and be with each other . it does have to be at a candle lit dinner...a walk by the beach is good enough....
i cant compare others with me...ppl are born in different ways....they have their own ways....
i hope my relationship last long with no fights and i hope he on the other side will always give and take.....pls be matured and pls do not spent ur money on unneccesary things....
9/17/2007 08:23:00 PM
mon....pm shift..
came to work looking fresh..took bed 1 as my case...so i was totally in charge of the patient...
my i/c was bz with dialysis.so she din even take a look on how i was doing...
nevermind....so i helped my i/c to send her patient to anigogram...almost an hour...my 4pm meds have not given yet....stress level up liao....
went up back....no one was around...all went for the talk....ok.....so i gave my 4pm med at 5pm...still acceptable....then suddenly at 6pm my patient desaturate...to 88%....i was running up and down calling the doc and chge the mask from 40% to 50% to 100% NRBM! ok no one help me except my 2 ens and my ssn heryani...(she was not even my i/c) they help me....patient was sweating like a mad dog ! the pillow was soooo wet!aiyo.... i was sooo tired..i din go for my break! till 9 30pm..which is the time for me to go back la...9pm then i start to write report...but my mind was totally blank.....9 30pm then i sat down to eat....i was soooo tired... haiz......i din break down or what ...i was ok....i went home at 11pm..thanks to that some one who sent me home heheh....
tue....pm shift again
same patient..was ok for a while...but when i was about to start her stat dose of digoxin....her bp went down to 68/49!.....lagi i panicked! i called my i/c anb i stopped every drip tha tis there.....
i was kan chiong abit! hehe.....at least better than yest...
friday im driving....not to work...cos mum needs it more...so i shall pick the car up at HPB pick up ainul then syahrils frends..then we go eat! hehe....cant wait...sat im off duty....sun im am shift....good luck lor....now have to work on weekends!
tmr is start of fasting......i hope i can lose weight la...pray hard....
ok that all folks..
sue camden..
9/12/2007 11:07:00 PM
ok start blogging sue.....
thurs went home from work ....msg-ing mimi....and she said she preparing to go to swimming....wa lau! i told her to wait for me hehe.....so i waited at the bust stop and we went to down town east to swim for abt 45 mins...ainul do not want to get out of the swimming pool..but i forced her too......then we sat down to have our dinner...my legs are damn tired lor,...after 2 days of fitness....hehe....
friday went to meet up with my boo cheyanne.....hey thanks alot la....i dont mmind if u guys cant help or what but i fet great just talking with u guys....i dun think much when im with u guys....hehe...
hurry homw cos its dada birthday ...bought hair clips from montip...pathetic...but at least sumthing la....
den syahril ask me to go to changi village cos he want to eat....so ok la...waited for his friends....and i drove to changi....i speed abit..ehehhe...the frends said i drove like a car racer...puit!!!! hahaha....so he ate till 12 30...and we went home....
monday start shift already.....AM AM PM PM PM DO AM (U PPL SHUD UNDERSTAND WHICH DAY IM WORKING WHAT SHIFT OK)
ok ok ...i got alot of things on my mind
need to buy
: mp3 player
:small basket to put in the locker
:new lip stick and gloss
: a small sling beg for my stationary
thats is abt all la i have in mind.....this incl my birks 2008 collection....wah alot alot.....every day must start eating bread already...hahahah................
i want to cut my hair la....after raya maybe...i want to cut pixie but i want ta fringe...to that i can put a clip...so cute right!!!!! hahaahahah
9/09/2007 08:01:00 AM
thank u for ur concern ....i really appreaciate it........but i am writting all this just to let it out....not to attract attention or what so ever la....i do trust my friends and its not that i do not trust thereforei did not share ....its just i dun feel like sharing some times....i tend to get emotional....hehe....so anyway ...im trying to just live day by day la....im trying hard to starve myself at times....
so thats thats......work has been ok ...but tiring!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i tend to be sleepy by 3 pm.....wa lau~....my feet are soooo lethargic...that sometimes i feel like taking a taxi home....but anyway i hope i can bring the car la.which i already started driving it.....so it feels good la to drive proper...for the last 2 yrs.....haha.....
just now after work we have this testing likit test....its like fitness test with no strict rules i can say.....we can try a few times...and do the real one and given 2 chances....sit and reach is a must.....2nd st we can choose either sit up, standing broad jump or push up....and also 2km walk or run......it was damn tiring lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we ran in our scrubs suits.....sooo hot....
anyway mum just came form kl....bought soo many stuffs.....i will be wearing a black baju kurung and a champhagne colour baju kurung.....syahril has also the same colour and pattern like me....ainul do not have....she wasnt to go again....she say hard rock kl is soooo happening when she went!!!! she went in with slippers...how cool is that...........................
meeting up with my boo this friday....chey..................miss her tooo much....
ok my eyes now are coming nearer and nearer......................sleepy................................bye........
9/05/2007 11:06:00 PM
why guys after thay did a mistake...they will do it again??............
they say "i promise i will not do it"....but 2 days later they will do it again...
they dont like when we start sms-ing with guys...but them on the other hand can msged with their female classmates........so is that called fairness.....?
to me its totally unfair! i do not noe why i am bekaving like this but...
do u think im am being fair or am i just too much?
i have this thinking everytime when this thing happen...
i just dun understand why they can msg such a lovey dovey msgs...or even sent sweet talking msgs to the classmates or school mates...but when it comes to their own gfs or fiancee, they dont msg like that.....
u guys noe i love to be loved. but i am not being loved since i give birth to my daughter. the sweet msgs, the lovey dovey msgs are all gone ....even if i start stroking his hands he will push away, i stroke my fingers on his neck he say its ticklish..(isnt that suppose to be ticklish and further more u should like the feeling when being tickled by ur loved one.) u see what i mean....it really turned me off'!
no more sweet kisses on the forehead.....no more holding hands or hugs......sometimes i really want to starve myself to hunger so that he will feel the pain that im going thru.....he always say
im fat, im too heavy for his bike......im very sensitive with this kind of remarks.....should i or should i not do it......i really really hate myself right now................
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i can be happy in front f my friends...but when i go home im a totally different person.....im a GEMINI....split personality....but pls do not ask me anything.......i rather keep it to myself and just live with it...
i mean he is a good and responsible person.......but this kind of problems can be solved .....but i think the prob lies with me la.......i am just sooooooooooooooooooooo fucking fat that MAYBE he is too ashamed to declare i am his fiance.........may be thats the reason i really do not noe........
i want him to have that feeling " im soooo scared to lose u" or i do not want to lose u .....
ok i am not depressed now.....i think tooo much!!!
i just hate myself totally!!!!!!!
i feel like taking a knife and just slash my ugly fcuking face and body!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sue camden
9/01/2007 08:54:00 PM
